thanks everybody for replying.thanks so much for your kind and help. my husband is a good guy.at least i know he would be a very good father.i think i trust him too much before i came to USA.i knew he has two sons and he loves them so much. but i never knew i have to go to visit them every week and face to his ex everytime and they still look like a happy family.and i never know it's such hard for me to be there. he explained that they do this because don't want boys to feel any hate.i understood it and i accepted it too even thought it's so hard for me.but i hate that he seems want to stay there as long as possible.i don't know if he really care about my feeling. i knew he doesn't have a good place to live but i trust he would give me a little comfortabel life so i even didn't talk to him about sleeping before i came here.i don't need a big house but just a bed.i never know i have to sleep on the floor before i arrived. i don't want to complain because i love him and it's my choice.but i really wish he could know what i did.i really wish he could appreciate what i did.i can accept he put his son first but just don't lie to me that i'm the first.maybe i would put my baby first too after my baby born.i'm not stupid that i couldn't feel who love me or not,who love me more or less.i really wish he could treasure the new family and marriage. thanks everybody.